Life Rollercoaster -> Good and bad
When things go well, there is things waiting to go bad
Has this ever happened to you?
When you feel things have finally gone well, right in the corner, when the worries are finally washing away - something else is just waiting to add more problems.
That is my life. All the time.
As a kid, I remember wanting to be an adult.
Now as an adult, I really wish I was a kid. Even when I was way past those in my age group with intelligence, I was naive about life and the responsibilities necessary to deal with. Sure, I knew what an adult meant, but the feelings you feel once there place you in an unending loop.
The day I graduated from high school, most of my classmates were—blimey—excited. I wasn’t. My journalism teacher wondered why I was not jumping up and down. I was going to go to college. Going after my degree. Etc.
I replied,” What is exciting about going to college? I am paying for my education now.”
I had to worry about getting a job. Not crashing my car. Helping my folks out with bills. Putting time into studying. AND other many issues that I have written in a journal. At 18, you would think my problems would be few, but I was taught to take care of my folks, to think of the possible future…etc—a lot of what-ifs for a teenager going to college.
I tried planning my future to the T … a large T that my father had me write down and create this excellent chart of what would happen and how I would do it.
IT DIDN’T WORK.
I taught myself that I had to go with the flow because no matter what I planned for, it never went how I wished. Sure, by doing this, there were MANY CONS. The biggest of these cons was being unsure of surviving this world which had gotten worse under our current admin. A surprising development, as I thought with this president who KNEW the government would at least have some better sense … but alas, that was a big nope.
So, now I find myself existing one day that things were working out to worry the following day.
I was looking to enter the entertainment business. Signed up with a talent agency, etc. Losing weight … etc. Looking at vids…etc. Then … THE STRIKE. Not only a strike from the writers but now from those in films and the directors. I will hang in there because fer cryin’ out loud, it can’t last that long—hopefully. Not only that, applying for jobs in a new city because, as much as I love my home city — THERE IS NO JOBS!
I studied for the one degree with the least amount of work available. Even with my creds (epic creds, mind you), I am either over or under-qualified. Who knew being a physicist with high-energy astrophysics study and being able to do graphic designing, artist, and a coder in many languages would make it difficult to get work. NOT ONLY THAT … I look and sound like I am still in my early 20s (thus, getting into a talent agency for voice-acting).
So, I started this blog.
In hopes of placing my random thoughts out there and maybe, just maybe, making this my future career and letting out some stress.